November 2010
You never let me down. You always did exactly what you promised. Every weekend my hands were all over you. This won’t be easy. It’s a little fucked up I know, but your cousin Joose is treating me very well. I’m sorry 4loko): I didn’t break up with you, the law did/:
You keep me awake at night
Feeling alone , curling up under the covers.
I put the blame on all my past lovers.
Now thinking that my life couldn’t get any worse.
I’m pretty sure I have been cursed.
Disappointed and full of regret.
Grabbing my lighter to light my last cigarette.
Letting the smoke fill up lungs.
I picture my teeth biting your tongue.
Dieing slowly inside lusting for you.
But I said I’d move on and I shall keep my word; Ima stay true.
yeah its becoming easier and the tears don’t come very often… but the pain is still here, and that’s all I’m focusing on. I want it to go away, but then again I’m okay if it stays, because it’s all I have left you. I just miss you soo much sometimes and I really just want to try things again, but I know there’s no way any of these broken pieces can just get up and walk away, like you walked away
